Feeling flat.

I'm tired and achy. I feel totally flat. The weight is fluctuating but not really disappearing.
It's days like this I really realise I have a chronic syndrome and it ain't easy. I'm not one to want to moan to everyone and feel the power of positive thinking goes a long way.
Well, today I am moaning.
For those of you who read this blog (whoever you are) I hope you find it a positive and informative place. I am more than happy to wax lyrical for hour upon hour about the benefits of being synthetic drug free. I am happy to count my blessings and keep a silver lining on my world.
However, that would not be a realistic picture of fibromyalgia. There are good days and staying the course with positive vibes is essential.
But, today I hurt. I have had a few weeks of differing stressful times. Just the basic raising of two pre teens can stir up enough emotion and exhaustion for any parent. There is the world of chasing them to do homework, raising them to have respect for their environment and the people in it and of course just making sure they pick up a bar of soap once in a while.
On top of the normal stresses I have also had the worst cold I have had in some time. I still have horrible blocked sinuses that are giving me a headache.
Then there is the world of useless solicitors. Making a reasonable simple procedure (that could have taken six weeks but has taken three years) into a minefield of recrimination and emotional turmoil.
I just want to curl up and hide from the world. I don't want to socialise, I don't want to do anything. I can hardly keep my eyes open to read a book.
My fingers ache and feel like they are the size of sausages. I have shooting pains in my thighs. My joints burn and I just want it to stop.
ho hum.
Time to paint a smile on my face and go to the shop. Then make dinner for my family.
When can I go to bed?

one step forward, two steps back.

harumph!

Due to a variety of factors my body clock is all over the place. I sleep badly at the best of times. Last night I saw 4.45am before finally drifting off. Poor old DD was due to get up at 5 so his alarm went off after I'd only been sleeping for 15mins. I then spent a couple of fitful hours until time to command the children in school preparation from my bed. I'm lucky that they are old enough to be reasonably self reliant and DD is a saint who will step in when needed. I then got up and played around on the computer, drank tea and ate toast. All in the hope of staying awake.
Unfortunately, due to excessive weight and a deteriorated sacroiliac joint my back had other ideas. Even walking up and down the stairs today has been agony. So I meandered back to the comfort of my supporting pillow mountain with a book. I  awoke a couple of hours later, specs on the end of my nose and book in my lap. Ever U2 on the ipod didn't keep be awake.
I know I just have to wait it out for the anti d's to leave my system but I felt I was getting somewhere yesterday. Today I am grumpy and fed up! This could be constant pain, poor sleep, pmt, or frustration at not being able to move forward with my retraining. All in all I'm possibly not the happiest of bunnies today
So today I am grumpy, shaky, tired, spotty, hurting, dizzy, have pins and needles in my hands and feet,
and feeling sick!
God damn you fibro!